Dear Baba Rumcake,
Have you ever ended a relationship with a girl or she ended it with you but you couldn’t stop thinking about her and getting excited at the thought of her?
Ummmm….get a grip! You broke up with her or she with you. It is over! On the other hand, if she is fueling your imagination thus fulfilling some need in you with Rosy Palm, then go for it, dude.
It is time to move on with your thought life. Sounds to me like you need a new honey, fast. You could just fuel that imagination with another new fantasy. Or, you need to revisit that relationship and go ask her out again.
Either way, you will make headway by moving in one direction or the other instead of just thinking about things without any decision making.
Find another girl. Maybe then, you will not need to use your imagination or your hand. Be careful though, getting into another relationship, when the fires are still burning elsewhere. You will find yourself in a pickle if you see her again.
Also remember to check on your palm every day, hair might be growing and you might go blind.
God bless on deciding to move on.