Dear Baba Rumcake,
Certain people make me feel good, but most make me paranoid that they actually dislike me and are laughing at me or something like that.
How come it is hard to find the ones that just make me feel good?
Paranoid in Peoria
Dear Paranoid,
No one but no one can make you either feel good or paranoid. The only one who will allow that, is you. No one will do it unless, your permission has been granted. The opportunity to get that far into your head lies only with you.
Assuming that you are a grown up, looking for people who will “make you feel good” sounds childish and immature.
The truth is that no one is making fun of you or laughing at you. You do not like yourself much. It is a never ending pitfall, depending on others to fulfill your needs and your desire to be accepted.
My advice to you is to grow the hell up and stop blaming others for your poor self esteem and self deprecation. Walking around like a Pollyanna expecting to feel good all the time is unattractive and repulsive.
Blessings on your poor evaluation,
Baba Rumcake