I complained that it was too hot, complained it was too muggy. I found it hard to be outside that day and much of a burden to be around others. Nothing suited me, everything crashed around my comfort.
I whined that my plans were delayed beyond my decisions and my schemes held up beyond my endurance. I grumbled at fate and my lot for my tactics on the back burner, my layouts, my…..my…..my…..mine….mine.
I did all this at the poolside in comfort and in the middle of paradise.
And there within minutes arrived alone, a small thin woman in a motorized wheelchair. Her muscles responded slowly to her needs with every move. She arrived at a chaise lounge and proceeded with care to move herself to it. After she sat she started to take off her clothes one piece at a time with excruciating effort to reveal a bathing suit.
I cringed but she seemed determined to her end. One piece at a time came off with deliberation. Her hands moved three, four times over the same piece to get it to its rightful place. At last came her hat and it took the better of 4 minutes to adjust it with her palsied hands to perch on her determined head.
Ashamed of myself and my whining, I kept an eye on this amazing creature but she was not done yet. She wiggled into a tube around herself then got in her wheelchair to the edge of the swimming pool. The amazing creature slid off her chair into the aqua water and stayed there for 30 minutes.
Gratitude seemed lost in my complaints. Gratitude forgotten in my comfort. Gratitude by the wayside for the obvious gifts of life.
Thankfulness is an offering of sacrifice better than all the words and the prayers we offer our Maker.
I craved more shoes till I saw the woman in the wheelchair with crooked feet.
Real strength is in God and in godly attributes like quietness, trust and joy (Nehemiah 8:10).
Forgiveness is the key to moving on with your life after the trauma of marital abuse. It goes without saying that the person you are leaving behind is someone who hurt you. Yes, of course or you would not be leaving.
On bare quiet feet she slipped out of bed, went downstairs, turned on the light and put water on the stove to boil for tea, then sat down at the kitchen table. When the water boiled the pensive woman made herself a cup of Constant Comment then sat down to think. Tense with the anguish of spiritual struggle, thoughts whirled around in her head. Time crawled as she sat sipping and thinking. The sneaky morning light started to steal into the kitchen, as she sat there still wide awake. As she noticed the dawn, she pushed herself up, then went upstairs to shower and get ready. Time crept.
“You do not have money, Mikel.”